Back on the 12th we got to get out of the house for a much-needed distraction. We got to go up to LA to watch the Toyota Tundra tow the Endeavour shuttle. From the moment that I had heard that this was happening, I knew that I ABSOLUTELY wanted to be there to see it.
Originally the Tundra was going to tow it the last 1/4 mile to the California Science Center, but they ended up moving it up a day to have it tow it across the 405 freeway on Manchester because the usual transporters were too heavy and too big for the bridge.
We got there around 6:30 pm and it was already parked there so that they could switch it from the transporters to the towing rig. We saw it when we drove under the overpass and were severely geeking out about getting to see it up close! I believe I said the words "This is SO cool!" about eleventy-billion times while we were there...
Ignore my stupid bangs - they were not cooperating.
We got to watch them move the transporters out from underneath - it was so cool how it's all remote controlled. In one of the videos I was talking all about how I wanted a giant remote control space shuttle (transporter).
Those big blue things are the transporters... There was a guy with a big remote control that had to move them all out from underneath it so that it would be on the rig for the Tundra...
It was a whole lot of hurry up and wait, but we were able to get some awesome pictures! We even got to go inside the barriers and walk around it so that we could see the back and get pictures back there.
We had just walked directly beneath that wing... It was so cool to be so close to the shuttle!!
It was really surreal... It was so huge! (that's what she said... ha!)
LOVE this sign.
Finally at 11:30 pm they shut down the freeway in both directions (just in case something went horribly wrong and also to stop people from crashing into each other while watching a shuttle drive across the overpass) and it was showtime.
The truck looks SOOO tiny hooked up to the shuttle. And I know that's a big truck - I drive one
(not a Crew Max, but still...)
This is my video that I took just using my cell phone... It's not great, but you can see how the truck had absolutely no problem tugging the shuttle. It was seriously like it was nothing! There was no high revving of the engine... No slipping tires... It looked like he took his foot off the brake and just started going. It was amazing! The video's not great - like I said it was on my cell phone... and J stepped down in front of me so that he could keep recording with the video camera.
Feel free to ignore my awed mumbling... haha
And the awed mumbling of the woman standing in front of me...
It was a long night, but so very worth it... Even if it did mean that we only got about 4 hours of sleep before we had to get up for our early eye doctor appointment Saturday morning... I think one of the cops on site for security detail summed it all up
when J made a comment while they were taking pictures of the shuttle
about how it must be a pretty good night to be working - he said, "I've
drawn shorter straws..." haha
Now the shuttle is up at the Science Center. We plan on going up once the display is open and the craziness has died down. It was a seriously awesome night and one of the coolest things I have ever gotten to see.
We pretty much had the worst night ever last night.
It started with Fred having what we thought was another seizure. He seemed to recover from it faster than the last one at first, but then he started getting worse. It got to where we knew we had to take him in to an emergency vet - he just was not ok.
The emergency vet told us that she assumed it was a blood clot which meant that he had a heart condition. I don't understand how his usual vet could have possibly missed that when he was there SO many times lately.
His heart stopped while we were discussing our options. And ours have been breaking ever since.
My big man. He was the one we called the puppy-cat because he was always there to greet us when we got home and came when he was called. He loved getting all the affection we could give him - we could have kissed the fur off of his little face and he would have been happy. He loved to sleep on my pillow, tangled in my hair - something I always called Freddy-hat. He loved sitting in any cardboard box we brought into the house - even if it was too small for him. He was always happy and loved when we would carry him around the house with us. He would tell us when the food or water bowls were low. His favorite things to beg for were wheat thins, ice cream, and cereal milk - and he would make sure you didn't forget that he was waiting for some. He was sweet and funny and SOOO so loved by everyone that met him.
There is a big hole in my heart. He will be missed more than I could ever possibly put into words.
During my little “weight-loss journey”
I’ve had going on over here, I pretty much just worked out at home. I have my mountain
bike hooked up to a trainer that turns it into a stationary bike and I would
ride that when I got home from work. I started at 20 minutes and by the end had
worked up to 45. As I have gotten closer and closer to maintenance, I realized
more and more that that was not going to be a good long-term thing to do – I get
REALLY bored, REALLY quickly. I have a nice set of wireless headphones so that
I could watch tv while riding, but still... It made my butt numb and I was
So as I said before – I re-joined the
gym. My company gives a discount to 24-Hour Fitness, so that is where I went...
In my past few weeks of gym-ing it up, I have noticed several common
occurrences and have made a list of....
Things that make me crazy at the gym:
1. People that drive around for 20 minutes to get a closer parking spot! STOP
IT! You are at the gym to work out anyway - start it off by walking an extra 20
2. People that take the elevator to the second floor of the gym! The only two
people that I have seen at my gym that should be allowed to use the elevator
are a man with cerebral palsy and a man in a walking cast because he tore a
tendon or something... No one else should be using it! And when you get off the
elevator and head straight for a cardio machine, it makes me want to knock you
3. Men that GRUNT like possessed demons and look like they are going to get a
hernia while lifting weights that are obviously too heavy for them. No one is
4. People that apparently aren't there to sweat... I've been dripping with
sweat, pushing myself as hard as I can on the elliptical while a guy on one
side of me has it at incline and resistance of 1 (OUT OF 20!!!) and the guy on
the other side is barely moving while talking loudly on his cell phone... I
really had to stop myself from reaching over to #1 guy's elliptical and bumping
up the incline and resistance. He looked fit enough to be able to handle it....
But I didn't.
5. Men that feel the need to stare at your crotch while you are using the thigh
machines.... Dude, I'm fully clothed. There's nothing to see here. What do you
think is gonna happen?
6. People using weight machines as chairs. I'm here to actually get in shape
and you sitting there talking on your cell phone is seriously getting in my
way. If you are between sets, that's one thing, but no lounging!
7. People that don’t wipe down their
machines! Ew, ew, ew, ew, ew, EW!!!! Gross. Now, if you’re one of the people I
mentioned above that is apparently allergic to sweat, then I guess it’s unnecessary...
But if you are sweating?! Clean it up!!
8. The “bro’s” that are all about getting
RIPPED. But apparently only their upper body... They have skinny little chicken
legs and arms so big I assume they are not able to wipe their own butts
properly. Why do they do that?
That’s all I can really think of.... There are other annoyances that don’t
really happen a lot – like the woman that was saving the machine next to her
for her friend even though it was the only one of that type left and there are
a few machines that have had “Out of Service” signs on them the whole time I’ve
been going there – but those are just minor...
I’ve been having a lot of fun shopping
lately. I finally realized that I don’t really need to be a smaller size than I
am now, so I am slowly going to start adding foods to my day in order to stay
where I am instead of continuing to lose weight. I haven’t yet.... But I’m
going to. (Remember the whole “scared to stop dieting” thing? Yeah... Still
with that...) I’ve been adding in a meal here or a meal there that is a “flex”
meal on my own... Like this past weekend I made myself a super yummy breakfast
sandwich one day... and then had my first turkey sandwich in MONTHS the next
day for lunch. It was wonderful.
That is what I have been working for...
To learn how to eat what I want – just in a healthier way. I even ate both fast
food and a burger from Ruby’s. The fast food was only 2 regular tacos from Del Taco
and the burger was the low-carb burger, so my calories were still right in line
both those days... The burger was by choice – SO delicious. The fast food was a
necessity – we had been out and about all morning, it was well past lunch time,
and I was STARVING. And it was actually a good thing because it showed me that
the food I’ve been craving actually doesn’t taste as good as I have built it up
to taste in my head...
I’ll have to post some pictures of my
new clothes... I have been getting so many compliments at work. I just need a
few more pieces (really just a couple pairs of work pants and some more work
tops) and I will have a pretty solid wardrobe. It’s weird to pull out all of my
old clothes to throw them in my “donate” pile and see how much bigger they are
than my new stuff...
I took my rings to our jeweler the
other day to get them sized. I was starting to get really nervous about potentially
losing them. While they are there, she is going to make my second wedding band,
retouch all of the engraving and beading on my engagement and wedding ring, and
size an emerald/diamond ring I had bought for myself a couple years ago. J is
also getting some cuff links made and picking up a couple other pairs of cuff
Fits – just on the wrong hand!! Have to
have it sized up for my right hand...
It was REALLY bittersweet... I’m
excited to have my rings back (and complete – FINALLY!), but it hurts my heart
to not have them on my hand. J could tell that I was getting more and more
bummed about my naked hand, so he got me an inexpensive ring to wear while the
work is being done.
It’s pretty.... But it’s WRONG.
I don’t know exactly how long it’s all
going to take – she couldn’t even order the castings for my other band and J’s
cuff-links until yesterday because of the holiday on Monday... I just know that
I will be jumping every time the phone rings for the next month – hoping it’s
Pamela telling me my rings are done...
**This post is some serious mental
garbage – just trying to clear the crap out to relieve the stress... So it’s
probably gonna be kinda jumpy and rambling... Hang on and just go for the
That’s me lately.
And for the stupidest reason... I’m
getting close to my weight-loss goal and I’m afraid to stop my diet! It
seriously gives me major anxiety to know that soon I am going to be responsible
for actually paying attention to food and keeping my weight where I want it.
It’s so dumb. Tons and tons of people
watch what they eat and maintain a normal weight everyday... It shouldn’t be so
daunting. But when you’ve spent too many years overweight and unhappy, you
start thinking that you will ALWAYS be overweight.
Then you finally make a decision to actually
DO something about it and HOLY CRAP it freaking works! But now what???
One voice in my head is super excited
about getting to eat normal food again... But then the other voice in my head
that makes me doubt my ability to maintain properly starts screaming FATTY
FATTY FAT FAT!!!!
I know I can do this! I have to. I am
just so scared of being one of those people that ends up back on the
Nutrisystem Boards a year later talking about how they gained it all back and
I have a plan in place in my head to
stay on top of things... Once I get to the weight where I decide to stop, I
have a very strict “If I gain 5 pounds, it’s time to buckle down” plan in my
head. I figure that 5 pounds would be significant enough that it’s not just
some sort of daily fluctuation / bloating and actually something that needs to
be dealt with. No more willful blindness and unwillingness to admit that there
is a problem. Get on it and put a stop to it before 5 pounds becomes 10 becomes
And I also am stopping at a lower
weight than I originally planned because I don’t want that 5 pounds to bump me
back into “Overweight” BMI range. I am just barely into the normal
range and technically I could stop here... But I don’t ever want to be
overweight again. I’ve wasted enough time being someone I’m not. People have
started telling me that I should stop – that I don’t need to lose any more
weight. And while that may be true-ish
(I technically am in the healthy weight range for my height/age), I don’t think
another 5 – 10 (or maybe 13...) pounds are going to hurt and they will
definitely make me breathe easier when I’m trying to figure out maintenance.
I seriously think that I must carry
weight well – I don’t think people would guess what my highest weight was – or even
the weight I was when I started doing Nutrisystem... And I am beyond happy that
I seem to lose it fairly proportionately. I know that I look completely
different now – even if my brain doesn’t always want to admit it... I have
always hated my legs – my thighs and calves are just too big. I am never
comfortable in shorts. And even though I know they are smaller than they were –
I can’t help but hope that the remaining weight I lose all comes from there! I
am happy with my face, my lack of extra chins is pretty great, and I have a
pretty cute shape... “The girls” may have gotten a little small for my liking,
but that’s ok, I guess... I would have looked pretty silly if they had stayed
as big as they were...
The thing I am most excited about is
getting new clothes.... I am SO sick of feeling like a hobo. Almost everything
I own is too big. Especially my work clothes... I hate having to belt my pants
down to keep them from falling off! Yeah, that’s awesome, but it sure looks
dumb. And it makes me feel like I look bigger than I am... The only things I
have that really fit are one pair of jeans (that are starting to get a bit too
loose once they stretch out after being washed), a handful of t-shirts that I’ve
bought myself because I don’t mind if t-shirts end up a tiny bit baggy after
the last bit of weight loss, a hoodie/jacket I got because my other one was
HUGE, a couple sweatshirts, my workout clothes, and my yoga pants that I wear
as jammies... And that’s about it. Everything else ranges from “slightly baggy”
to “ridiculous.” I’m literally going to have to start fresh. I’m talking from
underwear on out... And I CANNOT WAIT. Three words that make me incredibly
happy: ALL NEW CARDIGANS!!!! I love cardigans – they just work with everything!
I am planning on making a day of it at
an outlet mall and building me a whole new wardrobe to go with the whole new
new me – new bangs and everything!
And I recently got a gym membership
again because I was getting really bored with riding my bike at home and knew
that that wasn’t going to be a good long-term routine for maintenance. I need
more variety... And I really want to do some weights to be more toned. I want
me some “Michele Obama” arms! I’ve gone to the gym right after work every day
this week and it’s been great. A lot of wonderful “people watching” to distract
me while I’m running my butt off on one of the elliptical machines or pushing
myself on the weights... I’m hoping to just build a routine of being healthy to
keep this all going...
**Funny side story – my first time
back at the gym the girl at the front desk had to check me in and set me up for
the self-check-in system... When I handed her my driver’s license, she did a
pretty good quadruple-take and shouted “HOLY CRAP!” Yeah... I guess I need to
go get a new picture taken... It was a pretty good laugh and a fantastic ego
So... I really need to just figure out
when I want to start phasing out the Nutrisystem foods... Do I wait until I am
actually AT my goal or do I start now while I am finishing up?? I could always
start right now by trading one meal a day with something on my own and
stretching out how long the box of food that I just got lasts... Or I could
stay purely on-plan until my next shipment and THEN start switching over while
keeping the Nutrisystem as my security blanket in the pantry... Or I could do
this box purely on-plan and not get another shipment – just cut it off and use
the extra lunches and dinners that I have accumulated as my security blanket...
Or I could just go bury my head under
my pillow and pretend I don’t have any decisions to make...
- Finally got my hair cut last weekend.
I always go for about a year after donating my hair before I am willing to
allow scissors near it again... What?! It is SCARRING to cut off that much hair
at one time! Even if it is for a good cause!!
bangs. Now if I could just stop touching them and making them look greasy
half-way through the day........
- I got some super sparkly Sally
Hansen nail polish strippy things because I like sparkly things... I’m kind of
like a magpie that way...
festive – it’s like a party on my nails.
- We’ve been watching a lot of Doctor
Who lately. I kept hearing about it, so I decided that I wanted to see what it
was all about. Now I’m hooked. And I cannot stop laughing whenever the Daleks
are on the screen. Seriously – they have plungers and paint rollers (without
the brush on it) for weapons and have you seen them fly??? So awkward. We’re
about two and a half-ish seasons into it and I am loving it. I just have to say
– if the entire crowd doesn’t disappear during the opening ceremonies of the
London Olympics, I’m going to be very disappointed.
See? The most
awkward killing machine of all time ever. Photo from here.
- I have a Dalek shouting "EXTERMINATE" as my text message notification right now and it makes me jump every time! I want to get one shouting "DO NOT BLASPHEME" instead, but haven't found it yet...
- I am super excited that Hell’s
Kitchen and Masterchef are back. I can’t help myself – I love watching Gordon
Ramsey yell at people. Although I was very frustrated with him the other night when he yelled at the guy for pairing duck and bananas. He need to take a trip to our favorite restaurant in Dana Point, CA to Gemmell's Restaurant and talk to Chef Byron. Duck and bananas go beautifully together!
- The diet continues. Slowly but
surely..... Down – hold on... Gotta do some math in my head here... Not exactly
my strong suit anymore... – 47.5 pounds. I still have another 20+ pounds or so
to go. Maybe more, maybe less... I have a number in my head, but I may aim for
lower or I may be happy with higher... We’ll see. All I know is that I am never
going back there again.
- The water heater and windows WERE
NOT my birthday present! Yay!! J got me a GPS for my quad. I also got the milk
bottle measuring cups from Anthropologie that I’d been wanting, a book of
Japanese cat fashion, a pen shaped like a cat, fun nail polishes, a cute tote
bag, and a butterfly in a jar – among other things. The butterfly is not real –
but it flits around in the jar when you touch it and scares the bejeezus out of
people in my office when they look at it.
butterflies were harmed in the making of this jar.....
- Went to see Hunger Games on my
birthday. It was pretty good. I was expecting.... I don’t know... Just more, I guess. I don’t know how to
describe it. I wasn’t unhappy with
it... I guess that’s good enough. We also went to see The Avengers that
weekend. It was AWESOME. I was cracking up through most of the movie. If you go
see it, stay until after the credits – it may not be a long clip, but it was
- I got myself gummy vitamins. Because
apparently I’m a 5-year-old... I kept wanting them and then remembered that I
am an adult that can buy what she wants, so I got them. They are delicious.
- I’m getting kind of bored with riding
my bike each night... I kinda sorta maybe want to start running, but I don’t
want to wake up early and it’s too hot in the evening when I get home from work
and I wish I could run on the track at the high school by my house because it’s
nice and level and there are creepy bushes on the bike path by my house that I
swear a homicidal maniac is gonna pop out of and.... About eleventy billion
other excuses. J says he wants to start running too... I keep telling him we
can go together... Hasn’t happened yet. We’ll see.
- I got both seasons of The Monkees on
DVD. I am so extremely nerdtastically excited about this. I really don’t know
what took me so long to buy them!
So.... yeah. That’s about it. I could
use a nap (3 – 5 hours of sleep would be a “nap”, right?) and I wish I had more
time to read, but otherwise things are good.
- I took a week off to clean my house
a few weeks ago. I felt like I had been hit by a truck by the end, but it is
soooooo worth it. I haven’t seen my house this clean in a long time. We took an
entire truck-bed full of stuff to Goodwill. It felt good to de-clutter. The
whole time I was cleaning I kept repeating “I will not be a hoarder” over and
over and over... And we have kept to the “clean it every other week” that I made him promise to so far!
mean you don’t wear a tiara while cleaning??
(Don't look in the kitchen... I hadn't cleaned there yet!)
- I love Method brand cleaners.... And
not just because they are at Target. :-) They smell SO good! I really despise
the scent of most cleaning products, but these are YUMMY.
- My boy cat had yet another vet
appointment this past Saturday to re-re-check his thyroid levels. They are
trying to get the dosage right on his medicine... This is starting to get
expensive. I heard back from the vet and he is STILL too low... First he was
WAY high, now he’s too low... I’ve talked with the vet and they said that all
three panels on the first test came back really high. Right now, I think we’re going
to try one more dosage of the medicine and if his results come back too low AGAIN
– then I’m going to take him off it and see what he comes back at without it.
- I’m obsessed with rose gold right
now... There’s a Michael Kors watch that I really
want... I just can’t justify the cost. Maybe I’ll request it for Christmas
this year... For now, my cheap-o fake rose gold watch from Kohl’s is doing just
fine. And gets me lots of compliments.
This is the Michael Kors one. Not my cheap-o... So very pretty.
- The diet is going VERY well. I have
lost 40.5 pounds since I started!! This has gone better than I ever thought it
would. I thought it would take me a year to get to where I am now. Don’t get me
wrong – I am DEFINITELY not complaining. It’s awesome. I’m happy that it seems
like I finally made it off the plateau I was stuck on! It’s annoying to not see
the numbers keep changing. At least they weren’t going back up... It’s just
frustrating and my brain starts screaming “EAT ALL THE CUPCAKES!!!!!” when I go
too long without seeing the numbers drop....
here? This is why I don’t give in when my brain is screaming..... What a
difference a year makes... First pic was from right after I donated
my hair last year (well before I
started on Nutrisystem) and the second pic was from a couple days ago.
I’ve lost 162
butter trees.... I have no idea why my grocery store still had these well into
- I CANNOT WAIT to buy a new wardrobe.
I feel like a hobo in most of my clothes. I was determined to not buy new stuff
all the way down because it would be ridiculous. I had to break down and buy
some new work pants... I just couldn’t go out in public in the old ones
anymore... It was embarrassing. Most of my tops are ok – baggy, but ok... The
pants weren’t ok anymore... They were making me look ridiculous. And bigger
than I actually am... And I have found that I actually like trying on clothes
now. Before it was a necessary evil... Now I want to try on EVERYTHING. In
fact, I’m going to go hunting for a cute pair of capris tonight...
- There is this “ice cream” that I use
for one of my snacks every once in a while – it’s called Arctic Zero. This
stuff is awesome. Only 150(ish) calories in an entire PINT. It’s more like a
frozen protein shake than “real” ice cream, but 1/2 a cup definitely hits the
spot when I want ice cream. And no guilt!
- I worked out in a hotel gym while
away at a work function. In snug work-out capri leggings. And I wasn’t
embarrassed to be seen by people – and not just strangers... People from my
- I’m thinking that I might dye my
hair red again when I am done... It would be a whole new me. But then I
remember how much maintenance red hair requires... And I cringe. A lot.
- J got me to watch The Adventures of
Tin Tin the other day. He loved it as a kid and was SUPER excited when it was
coming out. I had barely heard of it... It was very funny and entertaining.
- We watched the series finale of
House last night. I am seriously sad about this show being over.
- J’s truck came in while I was doing
my cleaning week. We got him a Tundra – it was a slippery slope of “First-world
Problems.” We got the new camper so that we could have two quads, the Tacoma
wasn’t strong enough to pull the camper once we got the second quad. Now we
have the bigger truck and J is looking for a bigger camper. The one we got was
the biggest one that the Tacoma could tow, but now that we have the
Tundra...... Why not have a little more space and comfort?
- Oh... And... The truck is super
pretty. And a giant hulking behemoth – that I have named “Gigantor.” I’ll be
driving it to work most days because I work a lot closer to home. It’s weird to
be in such a big truck. I miss my car... J gets to enjoy all my little
comforts! And he doesn’t even LIKE leather seats.... And barely ever uses the
seat heaters or coolers! <pout>
- I found these super cute shoes at TJ
Maxx the other day when I was trying to find something for a work dinner... I couldn’t
resist them. I mean.... Purple suede wedges? ADORABLE.
It was love
at first sight...
- There was an eclipse the other day
and I completely forgot.... Until I saw everyone posting pictures and it was
already over. Oops.....
- My birthday is on FRIDAY! The best
thing about being born at the end of May is that I almost always get a long
weekend for my birthday! I have no idea what I want... And J hasn’t asked. This
either means that he already has something in mind or he hasn’t thought about
it at all.... I guess I’ll find out on Friday!
- I absolutely love the new Scion
FR-S. I got to drive one the other day and I think it is definitely swaying it
towards being my next car... And the one I drove was exactly the one I would
get – it was a manual transmission and it was RED. LOVE.
- J surprised me the other night with
a new tankless water heater! I have been bugging him for YEARS to replace our
ancient (totally crappy) water heater and he finally did! He was going to wait
for me to figure it out, but he just couldn’t handle it... He HAD to tell me.
:-) It is the best thing ever. No more worrying about running out of hot
- His second surprise was that we are also
FINALLY getting new windows! We have the company coming out to do the office
window measurements on Saturday and then it will be about a month before they
are ready to be installed. I CANNOT wait. I think I must have scored some
SERIOUS wifey points by scrubbing the entire house down!
Wait.... Those two things had better not
be my birthday present................... He wouldn’t...... No. No... Definitely
- I still haven’t gone to see Hunger
Games! I’m thinking of demanding this one day this weekend. I want to see it
before it’s gone!
- I had to give up my fuzzy sheets for
the summer a couple weeks ago... They are so comfortable, but it was getting
WAY too warm for them.
- My office recently got Outlook for
the e-mail system – this has caused so much whining... I personally do not
understand what the big deal is. It’s just e-mail. And it’s a really easy
system to use after you click around in it for a while...
- I have decided that my celebratory
meal for when I hit my goal weight will be a carne asada torta from Jalapenos.
I seriously dream about that bread. It will be glorious.
And then I will
probably feel like crap because I haven’t eaten anything like that for a long
Ok – first off I just have to take a
little side bar here and be extremely confused as to why Word just tried to
grammar correct my title to “Why Don’t You Just Break My Heart While You Is At
It?” Umm... Seriously?
So, I guess I must have pissed karma
off or something because it seems like I can’t get back on top of anything.
(Soooo not what she said.) My desk at work constantly looks like a bomb went
off on it – there are days where I have to get through piles of documents just
to be able to uncover my mouse and keyboard so that I can answer an e-mail...
And my work To-Do List? Out. Of. Control.
And as if that wasn’t enough to make
me pretty much completely disappear from here and not have time/energy to read
and catch up on blogs I love (to where I had over 300 unread posts in my Google
Reader queue at one point...), karma had to go after the furry little creatures
that I love...
Sunday night my boy-cat, Fred, had a
seizure. It was pretty much the most terrifying thing I have ever seen. He was
perfectly fine - hanging out on the couch - and then it was like someone hit his
off-switch. He was completely limp - like a stuffed animal... No response to
anything and we couldn’t tell if he was even breathing. From the time that he
collapsed to when he started to come back around was the longest minute of my
life. He proceeded to stumble around for a while - basically pacing from one
room to the next and laying down each time he reached one of his usual
hangouts. And his breathing sounded terrible - I always call him a grunty-boy
because he kind of grunts when he’s not purring and he snores - but this was
totally different. I was out of my mind - no idea what to do or what was
happening. Luckily he started to seem more and more like himself, so we decided
to just keep him close for the rest of the night and I would take him to the
vet in the morning.
Vet visit was horrible as they always are. The
cat that normally loves everyone turns into a hissing, growling jerk when he’s
being manhandled by strangers in a strange place with too many noises and weird
smells... We had a full blood panel and urine test done and went back home to
relax and so I could keep an eye on him. The next day I got the results and found
out that my little old man has hyperthyroidism and will now need twice-daily
pills for the rest of his life. Nothing pointed to what caused the seizure, but
she said it could just be one of those freak things that happens once and never
Now, I know that it could have been
much worse – he could have had cancer or some other horribly expensive disease,
but he doesn’t. And he is 10 years old, which is the age when
this type of stuff starts happening. But it sucks. Like “super-mega-ultra-I-want-to-punch-someone”
kind of sucks. I hate having to admit that my pets are just tiny tragedies
waiting to happen...
So he has to go back in after three
weeks of meds to do a thyroid panel again to make sure they got the dosage
right. I’m going to take his sister, Emily, in at the same time to get a full
workup done on her since they are the same age... And that way they will both
smell like the vet at the same time and I won’t have to deal with her hissing
and growling at him for two days again... (Seriously – she sounded like she was
out for blood any time he came near her...) Hopefully hers comes back normal...
And now I am even more stressed
because there are so many things that I have to deal with from here on out – he
has to have his medication every day... That means if we go out of town, I have
to try to find a friend willing to go to my house twice a day (if it’s not
someone he knows, he will most likely hide, so pet-sitters are not really a
great option) to give him his pills. I’m not willing to board him – partly because
of the expense and partly because of the whole “becoming a hissing, growling jerk”
thing (see above). It’s just too much stress for him. So this leaves me unsure
as to what to do when we want to take weekend camping trips... And completely
at a loss of what to do to make it so we can go to my family reunion this
summer... Missing a few doses for a day here or there probably won’t cause a
problem, but an entire week?? I just don’t know what to do about that.
We don’t really have anyone that lives
near enough to be able to be there in the morning and at night to take care of
him. Ok – scratch that. We don’t have anyone that I would trust to get it done that lives near enough. I would trust my BFF,
but she doesn’t live super close (about 30 mile round trip) and that’s not
exactly realistic or fair to ask of someone. I definitely would NOT trust my
MIL – he’d probably growl at her the first day and scare her and she would
refuse to go back... What if I picked someone else and they gave the medication
to the wrong cat because they don’t know my cats and my cats don’t know them?
My brain is super over-loaded right
now. I haven’t really slept – Sunday night I got NO sleep. Monday night I was dealing
with Emmy hissing at him any time he tried to come to bed. Tuesday I got to bed
late. Last night I kept getting woken up because Fred has decided that he
absolutely has to do what I call “Freddy Hat” every time he comes to bed – he crawls
onto my pillow, tangles himself in my hair, and lays with his head on mine,
purring until he gets annoyed by the fact that I won’t hold
completely still. SUPER gag-me
adorable, but not really conducive to a good night’s sleep. I’m basically
roller-coastering back and forth between sobbing wreck, zombie, and good. More
so between zombie and good at this point as I’m calming myself down and
realizing that it’s better to know than to not know...
Today was his first dose and as long
as he keeps not finding the pill, I think he’s going to think that this whole “getting
fed cheese twice a day” thing is the most awesome thing since the invention of
My little old
man – he’s staring up at J, who is his favorite person in the whole world.
On a happier note... Nutrisystem Update - soooooo totally working. Down 23.5 pounds! BOO-YAH.